Smile... Your smile... The first thing that comes to my mind whenever I see someone smiling, I never forget to close my eyes to make each such moment a purely private one. Your thoughts always leave me smiling, and I am equally clueless to understand the connection. I never think often about you... about us... about past... about our past. Now I don’t even remember the pain I had gone through while parting our ways. You moved on and so do I. One thing I always knew that you will always pray for me as you always did in the past.
Even without you I was filled with joy up till now, apart from few initial days. I never felt heartbroken, alone and devastated at that time. I knew it will be a bitter pill to swallow but I handled myself quite well. Where that strength was came from? I felt no major setback on emotional front, no tears under shower, no friendship with alcohol, no cut-off from friends either, apart from some sad tracks. Does that mean we were not sharing a great bond? To be honest, the same question crossed through my head several times. I never forced myself to answer it though.
Things were going good at my side till very recent; I was surrounded by joy and happiness. The only thing that I missed sometimes was your smile, that was too when I saw someone smiling like you do. And I must admit I cherished it every single time.
Since last few days I have seen some drastic changes in my life, all the joy seems to have faded away suddenly. There is no particular reason behind such a drought. Everything around me is as same as it earlier was. But something is missing. Last evening when I was sipping tea in my balcony thinking on the same issue I saw a kid smiling so innocently just like you. I closed my eyes without wasting a moment but...You were not there. I tried again closing my eyes but did not even have a glimpse of you.
Now I knew you stopped smiling for me...
Now I knew you stopped praying for me...
Many questions started hammering down my head...
Congratulations for a new start bro..
ReplyDeletenow i can say that i have my writings enthused by the writing instinct of my bro.
It is so deep and meaningful. here is your welcome note.. click
http://cerebralrendezvous.blogspot.com/2012/01/this-one-is-for-youbro.html
@ P!yu: Thanks for your response. It is over whelming to the core... :)
ReplyDeleteLove you bro.. :) :) :)
ReplyDeleteI am touched :)